I am new to this site, i hope my post works here.
OK, YES, Times are Hard
AND, I'd like to say that Depression is a Mental Illness. AND, I think you should definitely go and find some community mental health center asap. Becuz, depression can be fatal Man. And, here is how I see it. There is some chemical MISSING in your mind that is making u depressed, SO taking a medication is only REPLACING what you don't HAVE.
It's simple. We have some members in the family that have certified
depression. The medication can save ur life. So, forget the stigma and save yourself Bro. Now, it should clear your mind,,,which is not able to clear itself, because of the missing Seratonin, or Dopamine or whatever is missing,,,seen.
Men, tend to want to tough it out. They are the worst to get help. But, forget about that. And, once ur able to THINK ClEARLY, u will feel better. (cuz it's also anxiety, right?)
Yeah, Depression/ Anxiety - they go under the same umbrella. Now, you can usually get the right med, (they might hit it right the first time, or if it isn't working right, they'll try another type)
They are trying usually to figure out if it's dopamine or seratonin that is needed. Seen.
AFTER you get a straight mind and some STABILITY, seen, you'll have to face whatever it is. It will be a relief, trust me and THEN, You can (maybe in a year - cuz it sounds like u've been needin' the help for a while) You CAN try ALOT of different NATURAL METHODS)
KAVA KAVA is one that I use.
As far as the reefer. You are probably in need of a detox, cuz U've probably built up a BIG Tolerance and that's Medically Documented TOO. I don' think u should detox reefer now, CUZ it can be REALLY, REALLY Depressing. I know people who did it,,,,and they do it one month each year,,,just to OVERCOME the tolerance that they built up.
BUT, it can't be done cold turkey. If you've NEVER detoxed from
reefer, don' ever try it Bro. Of course they'll ask u if you use any drugs. Well, I'll leave that up to you. But, hey reefer isn't a drug. And changing TOO MUCH at one time could be Really NOT good.
Hey, we all been up and down.
Some can pull themselves up,,they have enuf Dopamine or Seratonin
to kick itself in.
OTHER's cannot. So, find a place, and let JAH show u the way.
It's a freakin' illness. It ain't no stigma or freakin weakness.
OK, do it. cool.